you are our shame

having enough encounters with enciks-whales-and-sharks in camp, i find myself really really edgy when it comes to duties.

one would take out his arrow-missile gatling gun and fires at me only. if i am away, someone else will of course get it. the other one would throw an arrow boomerang, when he wants something done but refuses to get people to do it but ultimately people still do it for him.

so much for a 'with pride, i lead', imbued on us the very day we become full fledged commanders.

no wonder the reputation of the WOSPECS are so bad until the idea of pursuing your life as a WOSPECS becomes a BIG NO NO. screw you mass chevrons holder and its evolution. our reputation is so fucking bad because of all of you.

"with pride i lead", i said it oh so proudly when i finally graduated. it's now echoing so loud in my eardrums, but tainted with the shame of my second-life forefathers.

no wonder we, your earlier life forms has to suffer the mistakes you have committed.
no wonder we, your predecessors has to shun away from the very sight of you.
no wonder we, the bearer of minimum chevrons hates your very existence.

it's really no wonder at all.
no worries though, we are still going to make changes.
because i am nothing like you.