what is our relationship

the urge to sign on,
just for life security is getting more and more appealing.
but if i really do, i will just be giving myself into a life time of unwanted works.
and casting away hopes and dreams i have been chasing.
this, i guess is the usual question between your dream and reality.
i never though i would ever be so confused with such issue.
the answer is actually pretty clear.
it's just that i have too much fear to choose.

plus, the community is far too much a fucked up place.
the relationship between bars and chevrons are plain abysmal.
it has always been claimed that it is a partnership.
but practising what they preach never occurs.

we are the roots that has to be hidden underground, beneath sights.
while you are the leaves that basks ever proudly in sunlight.
this is the way it is. we will always be the inferior.
but we are not.